It's been like a month since I've posted..so sorry! Busy at school, home and church it seems :) I'm so excited for the Christmas season. We had a great Thanksgiving with my dad and Glo. Now just relaxing before back to work on Monday.
We still are in a season of waiting for a child. It has been so so so hard lately! In just a short 3 months, 12 people have gotten pregnant! Seems unreal...but I cannot focus on that. My focus is on Christ and Him alone. I am very excited for each and every mommy to be, however it hurts so badly because all I want is to be a mommy :( I get so frustrated and wonder if God is listening.. I will make it tho and He will be faithful to deliver. The holiday season is a difficult time because I can't wait for the day when I have a sweet little one's stocking hanging up and Christmas cards with their sweet little face on them. I know I should enjoy the time Allen and I have alone, but we have been married for 4 years and we love each other dearly but there is that empty place where a child is supposed to go. Most of my friends are on their 2nd child by this point. We are not THAT young and I would like to have a couple of children.
I just don't understand why we are having to wait. I feel like I finally have a peace about it and then someone announces they are pregnant! I am always happy for them but it is so hard not to think, why not me?? When will it be our turn? I think Allen and I will make great parents and I will not understand until God reveals it I guess. Just say a little prayer that God guides and directs us this holiday season and that He will bless us with a sweet little one in the coming year.
