Song

I meant to post this with my last post but totally forgot!! A song that I just absolutely love right now is Kristian Stanfill's "Always". Below are some of the lyrics I am clinging to and singing out in praise. I know OUR GOD will come through, always!!

I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm
My help is on the way, my help is on the way

Oh, my God, He will not delay
My refuge and strength always
I will not fear, His promise is true
My God will come through always, always

Troubles surround me, chaos abounding
My soul will rest in You
I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm
My help is on the way, my help is on the way

Oh, my God, He will not delay
My refuge and strength always
I will not fear, His promise is true
My God will come through always, always

I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
From You Lord, from You Lord

Expecting A Miracle

Happy Easter everyone! Hope it's been a wonderful and blessed weekend! I have had 4 days off and that has been fantastic!! We had 3 choir performances that were incredible!! I love my church :) So this weekend I've really started praying and claiming scripture. I know God has a plan and anything out of HIS will I don't want to pursue. However I also know what the bible says about giving us the desires of our hearts and trusting in HIS faithfulness to provide! So...I've decided to start expecting a miracle! I know some of you may think its "jumping the gun" or whatever you wanna call it, but I've decided to buy a few things every so often to prepare for the sweet little one God is going to give us one day. I know I will have no idea now if we will have a boy, girl or both, so I'm trying to look at gender neutral things. I've gotten a few outfits I just thought were sweet and would like to have. If we never have a real little baby, I can always give them away or just keep them I guess. But one thing I've always been so excited to buy is one of those cool picture frames that you put an ultrasound picture in. I didn't find the one with scripture on it, but I did find this one.

   I figured it was fitting since it said "A miracle waiting to be seen." We are waiting. And one day if God calls us towards adoption instead I will put a picture of our sweet expected child in the frame. I just feel that if I begin preparing myself for the blessings God is going to pour out, then I am showing that I do believe He is faithful to provide and that if He doesn't soon, He will provide that patience and guidance for our next step.

I cannot believe it has been almost 3 years. I know for some people that is not a big deal but for us it seems like a lifetime. Considering most of my friends are on their 2nd child now I am still so sad that we don't have one. I really really wanna raise my babies with friends their age. I also want to have babies with my sisters/sisterinlaws. Vanessa already has Hannah and I'm sure they will have another one in the next few years. Anne is due in just a few weeks with a sweet baby girl, and I'm sure Leslie will start trying in the next few years too. I just want my baby to have cousins around their ages. I pray that God answers our prayers very soon! We are so tired of waiting!! Also I had so share this picture of a sweet little guy, Sullivan. He is my friend Meredith's little boy and just a handsome little fella. He was all decked out in his Easter best yesterday so I thought I'd share this picture.

I hope everyone has a wonderful rest of the week and still be in prayer for us as we continue on this journey! I go back to the Dr May 3 for my post-op appt and we will see then which direction we are moving!

Recovering Nicely :)

Thanks for all the prayers on Friday! The surgery went really really well. I was not anywhere near as nervous this time around. I actually slept fairly well on Thursday and we were at the surgery center a little early. I loved having my mom and Allen with me! We got checked in and they took me back and got me all ready. Everyone was so sweet and caring. I knew I was in good hands. They did an IV in my arm instead of my hand this time so that was a little less stressful too :) I pretty much just relaxed and visited with my mom and Allen while they prepped me etc.. Finally they gave me some meds to just relax and then it was time to take me back. I remember breathing in some oxygen and then I was out!

When I woke up I was more groggy this time and a little nauseous. I took me a little longer to get ready and leave. Dr. Doody came by for a second and told me that they did find some more endometriosis but he did a little more extensive removal. They also found that my cervix was narrow so he dilated it. That could definitely be one issue that is keeping us from getting pregnant. So I am very hopeful with the results we received. He said everything looked great. I am not to do anything real active for 3 weeks and I go back on May 3.

Friday I just sort of laid around and my mom and Allen waited on me all day! Hank has been such a sweet little guy. He knew something was wrong so he has just been very careful around me. I've had some pain from the gas but not nearly as much as last time. Really on Friday the worst part was being nauseous. Allen's parents came over for dinner Friday night and I only made it a little while before I had to go back to bed..I just felt so pukey! Anyway yesterday and today have been pretty good. I am so glad I took Monday off too tho. I think it will be nice to have one more day not to worry about getting out. Anyway thanks again for all who have been praying. We are still waiting on God to work that perfect miracle and bless us with a sweet wonderful baby!

Surgery

I'm asking for prayer this Friday morning. Going back in to have a laparoscopy to check for endometriosis again. I am not as nervous this time as I was last time because I do know what to expect, but I'm still dreading it :( We had a very emotional service on Sunday. Choir special and service were wonderful with a powerful message and then during Sunday School our whole class prayed over us. There was not a dry eye when it was all done! We are so blessed to have a wonderful church family. I know God has placed us in the right place and has given us wonderful friends to share good and difficult times. I am resting in God's peace and know that He will bring me through the surgery and hopefully He has a sweet little one in our future. Pray for us as we decide to move forward with the shots or to just let it be. I have felt lately that God really wants us to just stop everything and really really wait on HIM. This is so so so hard for me so I really am asking for prayers. I will update again after surgery and when I am feeling better!