It is so hard for me to be at peace and content when I want something so bad. I know all the scripture and listen to all the words of encouragement from my friends, but still doubt...it that bad? I mean I am a Christian, I believe Jesus is the only son of God and that he came down to save me. I know I will spend eternity in heaven with him, but yet when it comes to blessing me with a child, I actually look up sometimes and ask if He needs my help! GOD, who created the earth and everything here...like He needs MY help :) But it is so so so frustrating to continue going to baby showers at school, continue hearing pregnancy announcements at church and school, and then every month wait until the dreaded day to see if it "worked" this month! Well, I'm pretty sure today is that dreaded day :( We are currently waiting I guess you could say, even though I have tried not to think about anything involving pregnancy the last 2 months...but that's hard to do when there are babies EVERYWHERE!
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Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Welcome! Thank you for visiting my blog! I am so glad to have this up and running. I've been wanting to do this for some time. I am currently on Fall Break this week ( a perk of being a first grade teacher) and have been doing lots of thinking. As I said in the about me section, my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for over 2 years. We have been through all sorts of fertility treatments etc.. and just 2 months ago decided to take a much needed "break" from it all. I have no idea what the Lord has planned for us but I do know that he will bless us beyond what we can even imagine.
It is so hard for me to be at peace and content when I want something so bad. I know all the scripture and listen to all the words of encouragement from my friends, but still doubt...it that bad? I mean I am a Christian, I believe Jesus is the only son of God and that he came down to save me. I know I will spend eternity in heaven with him, but yet when it comes to blessing me with a child, I actually look up sometimes and ask if He needs my help! GOD, who created the earth and everything here...like He needs MY help :) But it is so so so frustrating to continue going to baby showers at school, continue hearing pregnancy announcements at church and school, and then every month wait until the dreaded day to see if it "worked" this month! Well, I'm pretty sure today is that dreaded day :( We are currently waiting I guess you could say, even though I have tried not to think about anything involving pregnancy the last 2 months...but that's hard to do when there are babies EVERYWHERE!
Anyway enough venting for the evening...gonna go spend some time with my sweet hubby and dog!
It is so hard for me to be at peace and content when I want something so bad. I know all the scripture and listen to all the words of encouragement from my friends, but still doubt...it that bad? I mean I am a Christian, I believe Jesus is the only son of God and that he came down to save me. I know I will spend eternity in heaven with him, but yet when it comes to blessing me with a child, I actually look up sometimes and ask if He needs my help! GOD, who created the earth and everything here...like He needs MY help :) But it is so so so frustrating to continue going to baby showers at school, continue hearing pregnancy announcements at church and school, and then every month wait until the dreaded day to see if it "worked" this month! Well, I'm pretty sure today is that dreaded day :( We are currently waiting I guess you could say, even though I have tried not to think about anything involving pregnancy the last 2 months...but that's hard to do when there are babies EVERYWHERE!
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